Deep breath.

Ok, so on Friday of last week, we began to suspect that I was NOT PMS-ing after all, that maybe, this time, it really had "taken" and I really might be pregnant.

We figured this out after I slept all afternoon Thursday, and all afternoon Friday, and then when we decided on a comfort food dinner at IHOP, I ordered chocolate chip pancakes and broccoli.

Of course, we didn’t go out and confirm this right away with any of the fine over the counter tests available. Instead, we went home, and I went back to sleep.

On Sunday, Jill was in rehersal nearly all day. From 8:30 am - 2, and then again from 4-6, and then mandatory watching the other Shakespeare class do their final scenes at 8. While I was in the grocery story Sunday afternoon, buying carrots, chocolate ice cream, and cherries, it occured to me that I could actually have a very reliable answer, not just a suspicion about whether or not I was pregnant.

Since the Clear Blue Easy people helped me get into this, I stuck with their extremely easy products and bought the test.

"Pregnant" said the little readout.

Oddly, I was still astonished. Maybe there is no way to be prepared for the news.

When Jill got home, she was just as astonished. She also made me promise that I would take the other test that came in the box.

I’m not sure why, but I waited until Tuesday to do the second test.

It agreed that I was pregnant.

Then we thought I should call the very nice doctors at ACRM and schedule a "just to make sure" test.

That was today.

They called about 3:30 and told me that I was "very, very, very pregnant."

"Oh good! But I’m not sure what that means."

"Your hormone level is very high — you should come in EARLY next week for an ultrasound so we can see whether or not there is more than one baby in there."

"…"

Ok, to be fair, Madelaine warned me that I should not take the drugs if I wasn’t prepared for the possibility of twins. BUT I’m not actually sure there is any such thing as prepared.

We talked awhile longer. The nice nurse, Charlotte, explained that there had been 1 fully mature and 2 almost ripe eggs in there when I had my last ultrasound, and that it was entirely possible that those other eggs ripened in time.

I am going in on Monday for the ultrasound.

I’ve been saying that this last attempt, we really went all out: drugs, inseminations on both recommended days, etc. But I really didn’t think we were going to be hitting the baby jackpot, so to speak.

I have to admit that I have always had a secret hope of having twins. When I was a little girl, I ***so*** wished I was twins. So maybe this is dreams coming true.