I’m too tired to write the long thank you that you all deserve, but know that I’m thinking it, and I’ve been thinking it with more and more intensity all day.

On the "but why not wait" question, I think part of the answer is that not being Noah’s legally recognized parent is one of the contributing factors in Jill’s depression and stress. Thanks, Trista, for helping us articulate that.

We know moving is stressful and horrible too, which is why our search has been focused on a month-to-month furnished or semi-furnished apartment, so we don’t have to do it all at once, and simultaneously sell or rent our house, and be looking for "the next dream house." We truly do appreciate all of your comments and suggestions and ideas for reducing the stress, but I think the path we’re on is the "least hard" of those available.

The other thing I wanted to respond to quickly is the idea of limiting access to the blog. Unfortunately, with Typepad, it’s all or nothing; blogs are "public" or "private" — not the individual posts. But I’ve been thinking about changing to Wordpress or Moveable Type and my email hosting service anyway. Thoughts on either of those? (I read S’s review of Wordpress with great interest!) Or starting a separate "TMI" blog for some of these sensitive topics.

My hesitation is that several of you are Internet friends — we’ve met and gotten to know each other strictly online. And at least one other person was a casual friend with whom I reconnected online, and who is closer now than I would have thought, and other old friends have also "re-found" me here. You "Internet people" have been a great source of support, not replacing my family or "real life" friends, but adding something that I wouldn’t have wanted to miss. Especially now.

It’s time to crash. But thank you for your all your support and love.