Ok, I’m sitting here finishing up my sandwich, and it HIT me.

If I don’t get pregnant this try, this one, the one today, the one in about 2 hours, we will be down to our LAST vial of The Frozen Chosen, aka, our donor. No more is available. We are 9th on the waiting list if it magically appears. The other people on the DSR who used him also want more.

And then we will have to make some big decisions. Try one last time with IUI & meds? Try IVF using all disposable income for 2008? Keep going after either of those options with a new donor & paying for everything out of pocket? (That last is only realistic if we use our last vial on our last insurance-covered IUI; the IVF is out of pocket and will empty the pockets.)

On Sunday morning, there were 2 follicles, a 21mm and a 17mm. 20-24 is considered mature, and they grow at 1-2mm/day. Yesterday we triggered their release, which takes 36-50 hours, so we should have 2 mature eggs doing their thing sometime between tonight and tomorrow morning, with swimmers there to greet them.

Please. Let this be the cycle where I get pregnant again. Where Noah gets to become a big brother.

I know we aren’t technically down to the wire, but I see the wire and it is much too close for comfort.